Wednesday, 9 January 2013

nervous nerves

Salam wbt..

I've been dreaming of what will I become in the next 4/5 years. The image of me, myself and I in that particular year really excits me! I am wearing an electric-blue blouse, black trouser, orang flat ballerina shoes, bawal scarf and a leather handbag. [okay, wanita sangat!]

I [am] determine(d) to become a lecturer. I always want share my knowledge especially with what I have gained during my undergraduate years to whom that are in a real need. I want someone to include me in their du'a and regarded me as their teacher. I want to be like papa and kakak. Mama was a school teacher and I am not in line with her in that sense. I don't want to burden myself with the hectic weeks full with record book that need to be written every week, school kids' attitudes and etc... Sorry mama for that. But, THANK YOU so much for encouraging me to become a part of educators in the educational field.

I am currently applying for UPM for MA in Discourse Studies. I have met my chosen supervisor, Dr Afida Mohd Ali. She was a student back then in IIUM. She had her BA and MA in IIUM. Then, she did her PhD in Lancaster University in UK. Oh, that's amazing. I want to be like her too. She's young, beautiful, elegant, married and a mother to 5 kids. The eldest is a 5/6 years-old girl and the rest are twin. YES! Quadruplets! That's an amazing fact about her.

She have offered me to do a research under the grant given by UPM. She insisted to do a research on Medical Discourse. It's a new area for me as in IIUM, I was not exposed in Medical Discourse. I had Critical Discourse Analysis and Discourse Analysis, but not MD. I have accepted her offer and I am now looking / searching for any literature reviews that are related to MD. Alhamdulillah for this opportunity, Ya Rabbi. Syukur. 


Where will my future leads me to? @_@

Wednesday, 2 January 2013

limitation

Salam wbt...

I was overwhelmed with questions from Profs, lecturers, friends, asking me why didn't I apply MA overseas. The answer is easy. I know my limit. BUT, insyaallah, if Allah's willing, I will continue my PhD abroad. And, my aim is at Lancaster University. There is a course offered which is MA in Language and Linguistics and MA in Discourse Studies. I have friends doing their MA there too. Indeed, Dr. Selva and Prof. Quayum have encouraged me to do Discourse Studies there. Insyaallah people. Insyaallah.

Well, now, I just have to keep struggling with my upcoming stage in life and continue my studies while I am young. I want to make my parents and family proud. Hope Allah hears my prayer. I love you Ya Allah. Please make this easy for me.